Monilicious :*)

Dynamite, bombs, explosives — these are not the only factors that can detonate. One, two, three….BOOM! As you can see, there is yet another dangerous ticking device ready to burst at any moment: my brain. During this year, I’ve come to realize where my limits are when it comes to managing school work, tests, quizzes, exams, APs, SAT II, sports, clubs, student life, and this list could go on and on…

As a sophomore, there were times when I doubted myself. During the beginning, I was sure that I wouldn’t be able to survive what seemed like a extensive leap from freshmen year. As time slowly progressed, I bumped into many obstacles: lack of sleep, the piles of homework, projects, quizzes, and tests just waiting for me everyday, and my brain, which would always try to steer me to my comfy-looking, warm bed. At one point of the year, I literally got back from school and locked myself in my room, spending nearly 13 hours preparing for tomorrow’s schedule. How fun does that sound?

With this chaotic schedule of mine, some days were an absolute nightmare that still bring chills down my spine when I recall it. At that time, my brain was on the brink of malfunctioning and shutting itself down due to the excess amount of information that was trying to be stuffed in. These were some days where my friends and peers had to look out for me, as a I was short-tempered and oversensitive. Let me just tell you:

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two hours of sleep + school ≠ ❀

two hours of sleep + school = ☠

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This year helped me to become aware of where my limits stand; how well I can manage schoolwork with sports and most importantly, some fun. Last year, I could barely pull on all-nighters and now, here I am a noted master at spending the night on homework. The year of 2009 has brought me some memories that I yearn to cherish and to dispose of. However, whatever the incident may have been, to a certain extent, I have learned to reflect from my mistakes, thus bringing me a step closer to becoming a more organized, model student.

I pushed myself this year and to my surprise, where I believed my limits to stand no longer exist. I have changed, and yet again I am amazed at how much I can actually handle. In spite of this, I want all those to notice that I am a human and merely a sophomore student in high school, not a robot that is flawless and can carry out every action to the perfection. Similarly to robots, humans can also reach a point when their minds “blow-up” from stress. So, look out!

*Note: Read more about dreaded schoolwork and its connection to procrastination in Eungi’s blog.

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