Tuesday, April 7th, 2009...9:29 am
Call Me Crazy.
You can’t believe how many times I’ve heard the word “crazy.”
Crazy for that A, or in some cases, A+.
Crazy for dance. Crazy for praise.
Crazy for perfection.
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Now, don’t look at me like that.
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Fine.
I’ll admit it.
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I’m a perfectionist.
But is wrong to be a perfectionist? When it comes to grades, dancing, singing, or projects, I can’t be satisfied with myself until it is what I consider to be “perfect.” Surely, it is like my natural instinct to try my best in everything I do. This doesn’t necessarily mean that I am the best in everything, I just try really, really hard. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that other people don’t try, it’s just that I give everything my 110%. I have to be prepared, or more like, overly prepared. Some people say that this is one of my strong points, however, I think the opposite. Being a perfectionist is tiring both mentally and physically. When one spends an hour to write an essay, I spend three (writing it, proofreading it, proofreading it a second time, a third time, a fourth time…well, you get the idea, right?). Just ask any of my friends, none of them will say that I am naturally smart. What they will say is that I make a tremendous effort in everything I do, always being committed. They know for a fact that I spend most of my lunch time studying for that upcoming quiz, test, or presentation. Now, it isn’t even unusual for me to miss lunch! My friends know that on days like this I’m either at the library, art room, or dance room. This is how I am, always striving to give everything my all, even if the results may not be perfect each time.
But you know what? No one is perfect, absolutely no one. Everyone has their own flaws and weaknesses, which make them even more beautiful. I have no hard time admitting that I am not perfect and I can never be. Some people may have high expectations for me, like where I might get into college, or my career. But I don’t want to get ahead of myself, in fact, I don’t even know what I want to be. Right now, I just want to focus on my current studies, making memories with my friends, and just having a good time this very moment. I don’t want to regret not trying hard for an assignment, but I also don’t want to regret not making any memorable memories of my high school life.
To perfectionists, life can feel short, since there is so much to do in so little time. But, I guess I’m not a 100% perfectionist. Life is boring if you have to be perfect. I feel that life is long, or at least long enough for me to enjoy it and spread my wings.
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So, watch out world, here comes the imperfect perfectionist!
8 Comments
April 8th, 2009 at 3:05 am
Dear Monica,
of course I can read and write in English!
Sorry my Blog is only on Portuguese, but all my Flickr photos are multilingual :LOL!!!!
By the way, I’m EzLost at Flickr
Greetings from Lisboa!
April 8th, 2009 at 4:43 am
Hello
That picture of the baby is ADORABLE. You tend to find the best pictures on the internet
Anyways, I know you VERY well and yes, you are a perfectionist.
I don’t think that being a perfectionist is bad, especially because you give your 110%. People who give their all are the ones that succeed. No matter how smart someone is, if they don’t give their best efforts, they will end up FAILING. Adios.
P.S. I like your songs.
-Cindy
April 8th, 2009 at 5:14 am
perfection is beautiful because it’s perfect
but imperfection is beautiful because you can improve and it gives you a chance to.
but for me, it’s sometimes just fun to be lacking and busy
i shouldn’t blame you for being a perfectionist anymore haha
April 8th, 2009 at 5:30 pm
wow
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I bet this is the fifth-ish
time I saw someone write about
either perfectionism or procrastination.
Two elements that are apparent in ALL
of the KIS students
April 9th, 2009 at 4:40 am
Hi!
Well, first of all, seeing the comment above, I’m guessing that your school really pushes their students. I mean, no offense or anything, but maybe this is partially because you’re Asian?
(I have nothing against Asians) It’s hard to find people like you at our school. Like you said, enjoy your highschool life too. So make wise decisions when it comes to perfection. There will be a time when you will have to sacrifice one assignment for another.
You got yourself a subscriber and I’ll be looking forward to future posts.
April 12th, 2009 at 12:39 am
Ez: Hi!
Haha I appreciate you coming to my blog! And it’s totally fine that your blog is in Portuguese, because I have used a couple of Korean words in my blog as well. I seriously love your pictures !
Cindy: Well, my perfectionism kicks in even when I’m on Flickr, looking for the PERFECT photo. (usually takes me an hour to find just one picture that I like)
Eungi: Wow! Your statement sounded like something that would come out of an inspiring novel.
I can definitely agree to your words. And doesn’t it go for everyone? Everyone wants to relax and have fun at times, that’s what makes life so adventurous and fun.
Kathy: Sadly, I think that those are some of the factors that instantly pop out in the minds of KISers. Also, it is partially because we don’t have anyone to tell or any other way to release this stress due to perfection and procrastination except through blogging or writing diaries.
That’s the sad truth about our students.
Alex: Hi!
Thanks for subscribing to my blog. I just surprised how you came across my blog! I have to admit that my school is very demanding when it comes to assignments and tests, there is at least two every week! I don’t want to be racist or anything, but I would say that I have to agree with you. Despite it being an international school, a majority of the students are Korean, and they have been constantly brainwashed ever since they were young that they have to be PERFECT (as if that is even possible). But, not all of our students are like this, so I wouldn’t say that it is just because we are “Asians,” rather, it is because of the environment and pressure the society puts upon us. Thanks for your opinion though!
April 14th, 2009 at 6:11 pm
I think I used to be a perfectionist too, but then I learned to grow out of it. Hmm. How did that work? I have no idea. It’s good to work hard on everything you do, but remember to give yourself a break once in a while. Indulge and reward yourself!
May 10th, 2009 at 7:28 am
Agatha!
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I’m wondering just when I will grow out of it. I’ve been like this for most of my life and I guess I just learned to cope with my perfectionist side. I decided to accept as another part of being me, Monica. (This is what makes me partially “Monilicious” as well I guess you can say.
But I definitely reward myself at times with breaks and yummy sweets!
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